I recently completed a two-day training in Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy for Insomnia (CBT-I). I thought I'd share a bit of what I learned that might help those of you with difficulty sleeping.
So first off, probably all of us have a sleepless night every now and again, right? We toss and turn, can't get comfortable, throw the blankets off and put them back on... If this only happens occasionally and not night after night, you don't have insomnia. Additionally, you may think you're sleeping soundly, but never feel rested. There are other sleep disorders like sleep apnea and narcolepsy that require medical diagnosis and treatment. Those aren't insomnia either.
So what exactly is insomnia, you ask....
I have a beautiful, sparkly greeting card above my work desk. It has a purple background with a stylized full moon, and in front of the moon is a drawing of a dragonfly with shiny, iridescent wings. The quote is from Rumi, a Sufi mystic and poet who lived in the 13th century. It says:
"Let yourself be drawn by the stronger pull of that which you truly love."
I had a moment this week when I realized that in the midst of coronavirus and about a month and a half into working from home, my office work is piling up and I haven't posted anything to my blog in awhile. I have a list of things I want to accomplish and haven't taken tangible steps to do any of them. And, I was feeling guilty and beating myself up about that. (And yes, even therapists go through this...)
Then I took some time to journal my thoughts and emotions, to sort out what is really going on in my head. Guess what? I discovered that indeed, I am easily pulled by the things I truly love.