I have a beautiful, sparkly greeting card above my work desk. It has a purple background with a stylized full moon, and in front of the moon is a drawing of a dragonfly with shiny, iridescent wings. The quote is from Rumi, a Sufi mystic and poet who lived in the 13th century. It says:
"Let yourself be drawn by the stronger pull of that which you truly love."
I had a moment this week when I realized that in the midst of coronavirus and about a month and a half into working from home, my office work is piling up and I haven't posted anything to my blog in awhile. I have a list of things I want to accomplish and haven't taken tangible steps to do any of them. And, I was feeling guilty and beating myself up about that. (And yes, even therapists go through this...)
Then I took some time to journal my thoughts and emotions, to sort out what is really going on in my head. Guess what? I discovered that indeed, I am easily pulled by the things I truly love.
I discovered I'd fallen into a comfortable routine, centered around all the things I truly love doing. I start the day with a pot of coffee and writing in my journal. I love writing and journaling - I literally have a stack of journals dating back over 20 years, most of which would bore the daylights out of anyone reading them. They are my brain dump place and where I write down inspirations about things like why I'm not making time for all those other things I really really want to do. Then I wander into the garden and invariably find something that needs doing (sort of). I mean, it could wait, but why not pull those weeds now instead? By now I'm looking at the clock, realizing I need to get ready to see clients. I meet with my clients by video, and chart my notes. And by the end of the work day, I'm done with staring at the computer screen and actually, I'm tired, so those messages my practice management program is giving me about additional office work that needs to be done just sit there. I avoid them by turning the computer off. And go back out in the garden.
The thing is, I actually really do have things that are equally important to me that I want to accomplish, and in theory I have the time to do those things, particularly now that I'm working from home. I'm wondering if others are going through the same challenges? Here are a few ideas that my journaling helped me identify, that may help you too.
And indeed, I need to get to those less desirable tasks now...
Until next time, stay healthy and take care.